KJB Pony Adventures

I did it! I completed my CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) course Whoop Whoop :-D It feels amazing to not only have completed something but also to know that I will probably always be anxious by nature (it's in my DNA) but with regular self-check-ins I will be perfectly ok to manage it. For I am now my very own therapist - hold the laughter please ;-) There has been a significant shift in my thought process of late which has not gone un-noticed by loved ones. I now see the glass as half full rather than half empty. No matter how many bumps life throws in the road ahead I will take my time and enjoy the journey with smaller manageable goals along the way. One of the biggest causes of my anxiety is when I worry too much about the future. Things that are literally out of my control. Things that may or may not happen but I add it to my day-to-day tasks which overwhelems me and then I let it consume me and take over the more immediate concerns. For example one of my bigges

This week has been a really positive week for the KJB clan :-) Not only is the house starting to take shape - well my bedroom and J's clothes pile thus far. When you have a landlord inspection and throw everything in the wardrobe! Starting to look more organised. Thank you Marie Kondo for sparking joy in my life :-) I have spent time and energy passing on the items which I no longer have use for and now things are staring to look more organised. When talking to my mother about life as a single parent she once laughed and said "how do I expect to have someone move in with me when there isn't even room". Hopefully this is the start of good things to come. It's not only at home that things are moving forward. Things appear to have been improving at the yard too. Schooling Boston twice a week has proved to be just what he needed. Don't get me wrong we are a long way off being where we want him to be but I think we are making a little progre

Since we have hired a friend to help us further Boston's education by schooling him twice a week I haven't felt compelled to write much about the process. I suppose on some level I have felt like I have let myself, Boston and J down in some way shape or form. Even though I positive that we are doing the right thing now. J and I haven't been riding B regularly throughout this process but going forward we will be riding him more often. Particularly focussing on hacking out and letting B realise that it isn't all hard work he can have fun as well as long as he is respectful of us and our safety and visa versa. B doesn't appear to be napping so much into the corners which is a tremendous result. He still has a long way to go especially with him putting his head down etc. Part of my anxiety triggers are when I feel uncertain about situations. It is safe to say that I have felt really uncertain about our future with B and how we can help him settle in more etc. It

My little baby boy is turning 10 next Wednesday. I cannot believe how quickly he has grown. I am so proud of him and determination in everything he does. He has matured so much and adapted his learning to help him self. He is really applying himself at school and has a really promising future ahead of him. J is the most kind, caring and sensitive little boy who not only love all thing equine but every creature on God's green earth. If he could he would rescue hurt and abandoned animals and show them love and nurture. As J grows and hits double digits he is becoming more responsible by the day. In this birth year I would like to teach him how to cook and become more independent within his self care regime. All the while allowing him the freedom to play and imagine and generally be a child. I don't want him to grow up too quickly but I want to help equip him with the tools and life-skills he will undoubtedly need in years to come. I am almost excited as he is to open al